Summer blessings, my friends. I hope and pray the earth’s greening and pending shifts in life routine are creating some breathing space in your soul.
I am now 36 weeks pregnant. I feel it. Eden arrived at 37 1/2 weeks, and so there’s a chance this will be my temporary “signing-off” prayer for a period of time.
In the third trimester of my pregnancy with Eden, I developed severe Sacroiliac Joint pain. It completely stopped me in my tracks. And almost like clockwork, the pain descended again during this pregnancy journey at the exact same week and point. While trips to the chiropractor, yoga and “spinning babies” techniques are helping ease the pain, there was a stretch of time where I couldn’t even do the daily essentials.
I know so many of you, my friends, struggle with the burden of chronic pain. Maybe you have for years. My own pain in this last month has deepened my prayerfulness for you. How you inspire me with the brave and trusting way you walk the path everyday.
I’ve been reflecting on limitations and how I struggle within and against them. On how we can channel our breath toward the places in our bodies (or thoughts, or lives!) that pain us the most, and how that can be healing. And on how the more I can relax and breathe into my pain, rather than tense up and fight, the more centered I am in how I really want to live.
Feel my love and prayers with you in the weeks to come. How excited I am to share updates of new life soon.
of my hurting body
and tired heart,
I still and settle my soul
in your hands, giving to you
the places of pain,
asking that you channel your breath through mine,
bringing balm and comfort –
even for a moment.
You softly tend with a
soothing Spirit to the
sharp spikes of pain, spearing their way with suddenness
and stealing my breath for a second.
You don’t leave me alone
to face my limitations.
You are teaching me to lean into them,
and find there a whole new depth of
With you, I can be whole even as I don’t feel healed.
I can rest in the cradling of your love while together we wait
for a mending of the muscles
and renewed strength in my heart.
This, too, will pass….
And that is enough hope
to get me through today.