Completely Gracious and Loving One,
Forgive me. I’ve allowed myself to slip into cynicism this week,
to hang my heart on negativity, rather than hope,
to cover bloody wounds, rather than open them
to the air of Your healing.
Air can sting.
I have been asking You for a change in my circumstances.
And I’ve been complaining.
Sometimes, You want a change of conditions, and
You equip me to make that happen.
But I’m starting to realize maybe what I need this time is not a change
of what’s around me, but a change
My heart, not my circumstances.
Maybe a change in heart will lead to a change in circumstances.
But for now, the changed heart will be enough.
Instead of discontent, gratitude.
Rather than jealousy, generosity.
In place of judgment, compassion.
Replacing anger, laughter.
Renew my heart, God, into the shape You want it to be.
Lead me to my courage.
Kindle and warm what has grown cold in me.
Energize the passions that lie lethargic.
In the start of this Friday, help me stand before all of my life with a trusting, open heart.
That’s a good enough change for now.
I will ask You about those circumstances later.
I praise you as the heart-changing God who is good, the God who is able, the God I love, and the God of us all.